She doesn't expect the apology, and she really doesn't expect such a full explanation, not after she's been so rude. It's something to think about... how long can you live in a place where death doesn't stick before it starts to mean nothing to you? Is that what happened to her during the darkness - did she just forget the value of life? It's a horrible thought, but she can see how it would happen.

She ducks her head in shame, tears springing to her eyes. She can't explain it to these two people she barely knows: watching her friends die, knowing that all of them would eventually, facing the truth of her own death, and feeling so powerless and weak in the face of Zearth and Koyemshi and the whole terrible game. It's not fair, the way she can compartmentalize it for so long and then the vicious sting can return so quickly, without any warning.

"I..."

It's no good. All she can do is start to cry silently.