[Closed] One, two, three, not only you and me.

[whatagoodgirl]

Who: Nakama and Johan, Nakama and Nill, and Nakama and Gau
What: A whole lot of meetings involving sightseeing, typing, and note-sharing.
When: Day 24 (I think?), various times.
Where: Loki district and Heimdall district.
Rating: G, will edit if it changes.

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[uglyinside]

[ Johan looks ahead to the gates of the park, folding the map as he does. ]

Have any interest in riding that carriage?

[whatagoodgirl]

Oh, sure. Namine and I took that ride last time we were here, it's really nice. It gives you a good view of the park.

[His marked lack of reaction makes her curious.]

Have you seen eight-legged horses before...?

[uglyinside]

[ At that, Johan's words start out with a small bout of laughter. ]

No, no. I haven't. It's not an attractive sight, I must say, but in a place like this I'm expecting anything out of the ordinary. [ Still, he doesn't look very concerned with the anomaly, other than a vague glance of interest. Mostly, he's keeping his eyes on Nakama. ]

Have you explored all of the areas but the bar, then?

[whatagoodgirl]

You're adjusting really fast. [A slightly admiring look.] Most people - well, I was still being shocked by things for days, anyway.

[That steady, clear blue gaze makes her flush a little, but she does her best to return it.]

No, I haven't seen the spa, either. It's... girly stuff, nails and facials and stuff like that, and I can't spend my money on that. I'm saving for a sewing machine. [No makeup, easy ponytail, bulky sweater and jeans - she's got very little interest in being girly, and it shows.]

[uglyinside]

I see. That's very practical of you. [ He walks through the gate with her, pace holding no sense of urgency. ]

It's nice when people don't concern themselves with such frivolities. Especially in a place like this.

[ Johan slows as they approach the spider-horse creatures. ]

[whatagoodgirl]

[She doesn't respond to that, but there's a glow about her - she likes being described as practical. It's one of her touchstones, after all, practicality.

There's a grey, faceless driver waiting for them at the head of the carriage. She frowns a bit at that after their earlier conversation, but it's fleeting; she's determined to make this a nice outing, not drag it down with information about her world like she always does.]

[uglyinside]

[ Johan takes a step in front of Nakama, stopping as they reach the carriage. He holds his hand out to the faceless driver, greeting him with a smile. ]

Hello. My name... is Johan. This is my friend, Nakama. It's a lovely day, isn't it? We were looking to see if we could be given a ride.

[ The faceless driver pays Johan almost no mind, and a heavy, awkward silence follows as Johan's hand slowly retracts back into his pocket. ]

[whatagoodgirl]

I - I think you just climb in and he starts driving. [She is absolutely mortified for him, even though she knows he'll probably handle it gracefully.] It was... nice of you to try talking to him, though.

[uglyinside]

... [ He stares directly at the man for several seconds, the warmth on his face unfaltering, though his body language seems to tense a bit. ] He hears me. [ He pockets the map in his coat, stepping in close to inspect the man. ] He hears me. That's all that matters, isn't it? [ It's not clear whether he's speaking to her, or to the driver now. ]

[whatagoodgirl]

[Despite the warmth in Johan's voice, there's something a little unsettling about that close scrutiny, and the way his body tenses up. He's not intending violence, of course he isn't, so why does she feel an odd chill?]

Do - you want to get in now? [In a small, nervous voice.]

1/2

[uglyinside]

[ Johan looks at the contours of his face. Though there is no expression, he is trying to make out a countenance, through the bone structure. Trying to imagine what features were once there. ]

Yes. Just a moment, please.

[uglyinside]

[ Johan sifts through the bag that is slung over his shoulder for a brief moment, adjusting so it's now more in front of his body than resting at his side. ]

I think talking to him helps him. He probably can't express it, Nakama. But no one wants to just be used for their services.

[ Still rummaging. ]

[whatagoodgirl]

[She stands back politely, waiting to see what'll happen. Is Johan going to offer him a cookie? No, that's silly, but she can't think of what else he could be doing.

She also feels a bit guilty for just stepping into the cart last time without saying anything to him. Johan really is thoughtful when it comes to these grey people.]

I never thought of it before...

[uglyinside]

Don't feel bad.

[ He holds out a notebook and a pen to the faceless man, who doesn't react much to it. So Johan clips the pen by its cap to the notebook, and drops it in the man's lap. ]

I'll come back for this in three days. I hope you've written something in it. Anything about yourself.

[ He looks back at Nakama and walks over to the cart, settling himself in beside her. ]

[whatagoodgirl]

No, I should've thought of it. [Sitting with her hands folded in her lap as the carriage pulls out.] I've been invisible before. How many people might've thought I just didn't want anyone to talk to me?

[She glances over at him, helpless.]

It's hard to learn from your own life, isn't it? It's so much easier to learn from what you see other people do. But that's not the important part.

[uglyinside]

[ He meets her eyes, reassuring. ]

We don't want to be a bother to anybody. Sometimes, we do what we can to avoid discomfort. There's nothing initially wrong with that, not at all.

[ His look turns more sympathetic, now, as he rests his one elbow on the edge of the cart. ]

Being ignored is a terrible thing, but being noticed for something that makes you different than everybody else can be just as terrible. [ He shifts, situating the bag at his feet in the cart now. ]
It's natural that you'd want to avoid troubling situations like that. I think you've learned a lot from your life. [ He looks at the trees, slowly beginning to pass them by. ] It unfurls very slowly, through small awakenings. You're reminded of words you were once told, or a feeling you once had.

"Oh, I get it now." "Oh, that was what they meant."

[whatagoodgirl]

[It's uncanny, how much he understands about her. That statement about being different, and how much harder that can be... and about how things come back to you, like Anko's words haunting her so often -

- then it hits her. It might not be uncanny - it might be his power. People from Loki can have telepathy.

She gives him a sidelong glance, working hard to keep all suspicion out of it. She doesn't want to believe it of Johan, but Namine did say to keep her eyes open...]

Johan, what power did you get?

[uglyinside]

[ Johan is suddenly quiet at that. Immediately, he recognizes the unease behind that question, and the implications of what Nakama is afraid of him saying. His brow furrows a bit, smile flickering out into something more dim and disappointed. ]

You don't trust me? [ His eyes stay on the passing scenery. ]

[whatagoodgirl]

I want to! [Earnestly, almost desperately.] You've been a great friend already, and you understand me so well, but... no one has ever understood me that well, not even my mom. You say things, and I just wonder how you know...

...it could just be a coincidence. But I have to be sure.

[uglyinside]

... [ Nakama will now feel a tugging at the bag of cookies in her hand. It's strong enough that it feels as if someone -- or something, is pulling at the bag. Johan looks at her as this occurs with an expression that seems harder to read, appearing neutral enough to receive any projection of insecurities or idealization reflected in him. Perhaps it's a displeased look, or even a slighted one. ]

[whatagoodgirl]

[... oh.

She bends her own power toward it, just to be sure, and the bag of cookies pops out of her hands and hovers in the air for a moment before she snatches it back. Oh, now she feels terrible. She looks out her side of the carriage, trying to hide her utter misery.]

Johan... I'm - I'm sorry...

[Will he hate her now? Is this the end of their friendship?]

typos at 5 am rofl

[uglyinside]

[ His words start the moment she gets the "sorry" in, spoken softly. ]

You're sorry, I know. It could have been very likely that I possessed the power you were so uncomfortable with me having. But that still wouldn't mean that I used it on you, would it?

[ When he turns, adjusting to face her more, he naturally gets a bit closer. But just a bit. ]

I wonder, would you have avoided me after? Mistrusted me? Is it because of Loki?

still up or just up? =O

[whatagoodgirl]

[She turns to face him, and almost jumps when she realizes he's gotten closer, but manages to control herself.]

I... I don't know... these powers, they're all just so new to me. I don't really get them, and... I mean, someone reading your mind, the idea is scary. Never having any secrets. I don't know what I'd do.

But... I don't believe the houses determine what kind of person you are. People will say there are good houses, like Heimdall or Sigyn, and bad houses, like Hel or Loki, but - one of my best friends is from Hel house, and he's sworn to use his power for good. What matters is what kind of person you are, not what power you get.

[After this speech, she swallows heavily and meets his eye, looking solemn.] I - I trust you.

Still up....but not after this! zzzz.

[uglyinside]

[ Johan listens to Nakama, giving her his undivided attention and showing that he thinks what she has to say is important. There is no preconceived notion that he already knows what she has to say here, and his look turns increasingly understanding. Hel and Loki. ]

I trust you, too.

[ His smile is welcomed back into the conversation at this exchange. ]

Those without secrets owe it to a lucky life, not to an extraordinary sense of honesty. It's important to protect our secrets.

[ He places a hand, very lightly, on Nakama's shoulder for a gentle pat. He doesn't rest it there, for the sake of her comfort. ]

Hold on to those beliefs. Things might happen that will make you want to fall into a habit of mistrust, but it is a game it seems the Gods are willing to try and get us all to play.

[whatagoodgirl]

[That hand still makes her blush a little, but it's only because she's so unused to male physical contact. Without a father around, and with the boys in her class mostly ignoring her, where would she have gotten it from?]

Yeah. I'm the one who wants us all to work together, but I still let myself fall into that habit of mistrusting certain houses sometimes. It's not right. [Grimly.] You're right. I have to work harder.