Just to be put on your shelf.

[holmes_fanatic]

Who: Conan Edogawa, OPEN.
What: Awkwardness.
When: Day 134, afternoon/evening.
Where: The library, Odin.
Rating: PG!



[The library's copy of The Sign of Four was old but in good condition. Conan knew. He'd already borrowed it twice, re-read it five times. Of all Conan Doyle's work, it was his favourite. Stretching out his hand towards it, Conan hesitated then returned his hand to his pocket.

What do I do if it's not the same?

The thought felt hollow even to himself. Conan frowned at the bookshelf without seeing it. He knew the question he was really asking himself. What do I do if he's right?

Well, it wasn't like he was perfect. Conan's hand shifted to hover over a neighbouring volume, but somehow he didn't feel up to the mockery of A Scandal in Bohemia. Maybe The Five Orange Pips? But that was simple failure. He was never wrong ... The Yellow Face?

But that volume too was left untouched. After all, it wasn't as though Conan wanted him to be wrong. Conan had spent his entire life believing in him, after all. For that to be all untrue--

But what do I do if he's right?

Conan frowned, hand returning to hover over the Sign of Four.

He's been doing this for an hour. Someone send him home.]

Comments

[whatagoodgirl]

I've never really been on medication for a long time before... I don't know if I want to try it. I mean, I should just get over it in time, right?

[holmes_fanatic]

I'm not sure that medication is the first thing tried when treating depression. Especially not when there's a really traumatic event in your immediate past, Nakama.

[whatagoodgirl]

So it's therapy again. But there's no therapist here... is there?

[holmes_fanatic]

I'm pretty sure that no one who has asked on the network about therapists has tried going to the hospital to talk to the citizen staff members. Have you?

[whatagoodgirl]

No... I just assumed they only knew healing and first aid and surgery and stuff like that.

[holmes_fanatic]

I suspect that there will be citizens with training if not the experience -- before we came, there wasn't exactly any emotion in the city for people to need therapy! But the knowledge should be there.

[whatagoodgirl]

I guess - I guess I could go ask about it. [She looks uncomfortable with the whole idea, but she won't reject it out of hand.]

[holmes_fanatic]

Would it be easier if I asked, let you know what I found out?

[whatagoodgirl]

Would you...? [Hopefully.]

[holmes_fanatic]

Course. Since I work at the hospital, it'd be pretty easy.

[whatagoodgirl]

Thank you, Conan. [She looks serious, but grateful.] I wouldn't know where or how to start.

[holmes_fanatic]

I'll call you later with whatever I find out.

((ooc: okay to assume?))

handwave is fine!

[whatagoodgirl]

Okay. [A long silence.] Um, have you ever known anyone who... did this kind of thing? Therapy?

/o/

[holmes_fanatic]

[Conan considers.]

There's a couple of specialists in child psychology attached to the Tokyo Metropolitan. They're there to assess child witnesses and make sure they feel comfortable when giving their statements ... I guess I know them pretty well by now!

[whatagoodgirl]

Will they want to know... all about my past and everything? About my mom, and - and Zearth, and all that? They might think I'm crazy.

[holmes_fanatic]

It depends on the therapist and their approach -- but if you say you're not ready to talk about certain things, a therapist should respect that. Although -- given everything that's happened here and all the crazy stuff we've seen? I -- don't think anyone's going to think you're crazy.

[whatagoodgirl]

[Giant robots that draw on human life force and appear from nowhere might just be where they draw the line, though. Right? Why doesn't she want to say this to Conan?

... that probably means it's a bit irrational. She pockets that fear for now, focussing on the rest of what he said.]

That's comforting. I thought they'd have to know everything about you and your past. I guess... I could do that, then.

[holmes_fanatic]

The more information they have, the better they're able to help, I think -- but I'm pretty sure that a complete life story isn't necessary!

[whatagoodgirl]

Alright, then. If there's someone available, I'll see them.

[She turns down a backalley, taking a shortcut to Freyr.] We should be there in a few minutes. This will open out into Freyr.

[holmes_fanatic]

((ooc: Shall we assume the rest? I'm feeling a little bit stretched with event threads right now, and I feel like I'm not giving this thread enough attention, and won't until the event is done ^^; ))

[whatagoodgirl]

((sure, if you want o7))