Fly me to the moon [Closed]

[5thchild]

Who: Kaworu Nagisa and Jack Frost
What: Night time at a rooftop
When: Night of D284
Where: At the rooftop of Kaworu's house
Rating: G

[ he goes to the rooftop from time to time, to watch the stars and the moon, but also to take photographs of the night-sky since Kaworu is gluing them to the ceiling of his bedroom. While his cat Zadkiel hated to come along with Kaworu, his second cat (a kitten, actually) was more than happy to follow.

Sitting on the roof, the angel watches the moon with the kitten purring loudly in his arms after he took few pictures.

It's peaceful, like that. After such a big battle, it felt good to rest like this, under the stars.] ]

Comments

[5thchild]

[ kaworu nods ]

Before, I didn't need to sleep, so I rarely did. Since I came to the city, because this body needs rest, I sleep every night. And I remember.

[2cool4guardian]

[Well, doesn't that sound familiar. Jack was in the group of "rarely slept" too, so this has his complete attention. Maybe he will be less defensive now.]

I don't need to sleep every night yet but... I think I'm dreaming. [He frowns.] Their changes to our bodies are really random...

[5thchild]

I'd say they made us quite human in a way.

Does it bother you, these changes?

[2cool4guardian]

Noooo, I'm perfectly happy with them.

[This time is not only sarcasm in his voice, but also a lot of frustration and even a bit of bitterness.]

Of course they bother me! I don't know my own body!

[5thchild]

[ Kaworu smiles simply at that, before he turns to his kitten again, petting it. ]

Do you dislike this place?

[2cool4guardian]

[Jack is about to answer, but thinks twice before doing so (mark this day on the calendar, fellows). He glances at the windows he checked on before finding Kaworu - all those children, and hell, even the adults too... everyone can see him here.]

...I dislike war. I dislike higher-ups how think they can do whatever they want with us.

[5thchild]

[ Kaworu smiles. That's not really what he asked, but it's alright. ]

And without those?

[2cool4guardian]

I... I don't know.

[Too many mixed feelings to get a good answer out of it. But it seems they have some things in common, right? Maybe Kaworu can do better.]

What about you?

[5thchild]

To be here or not, it doesn't matter to me.

However, I do enjoy this place quite a lot. I have learned much since I came here.

[2cool4guardian]

[Jack squints his eyes, not quite getting it. Kaworu, why so confusing.]

If you enjoy it then it matters to you.

[5thchild]

I find joy in most things, to be perfectly honest. [ There is a reason why he is called a weirdo. ]

The place matters to me, but if I exist here or not, it doesn't. When I say it doesn't matter, I speak about my position in this place, not about my feelings for it.

[2cool4guardian]

[More staring. Yeeeeah nope. No getting it. Sorry, Kaworu.]

Why wouldn't you want to be in a place you have feelings for?

[5thchild]

Because it's not important. [ your staring, Kaworu is used to it. ] I'm not important, that's why.

[2cool4guardian]

And home isn't important either? [If it's not Asgard, there's some place this guy would like to be at... right?]

[5thchild]

It is, but it can be without me. [ Kaworu pets the kitten once again ]

[2cool4guardian]

[Jack literally facepalms. He feels like they're going in circles.]

I'm asking how you are, not it. Like... the place you want to be at. That's more or less what you asked me.

[5thchild]

I have told you - I'm not important. [ with Kaworu, unless you make the right questions, you will get confusing answers, Jack. ]

[2cool4guardian]

[He is starting to see now. This is a "too deep to you" kind of situation - funny, he can see how that fits the idea he has of what Kaworu's kind does.]

Are you like a Guardian Angel or something? [Maybe he lives for his duty, that would explain it himself not mattering.]

[5thchild]

[ Kaworu smiles at the question. it's not the first time. ]

You are assuming I'm the kind of angel humans write about. Religious beings.

I'm not. Though Humans were indeed the ones to name my kind.

[2cool4guardian]

Oh. [...] You can't let them name you. They don't have a very good perspective of the supernatural.

[Let him tell you how he totally does NOT nip noses.]

[5thchild]

Is that so? I think they have an amazing imagination. [ since Kaworu has none, of course he does ]

[2cool4guardian]

They lose at least half of it when they grow up. [When they stop believing, he means.] They write about angels but they wouldn't believe you if you told them you're one.

[5thchild]

I don't think it's a matter of losing their imagination. Rather, it's a matter of shifting it, shaping it, changing it. Because as they grow, people shift, are shaped and change.

[2cool4guardian]

Just say it, they become boring. Just something like their car not working in the morning is enough to annoy them all day.

[5thchild]

Or having been betrayed so deeply that they will never be able to trust anyone again, thus rejecting everyone and yet being so pained by the loneliness it brings.

[ Kaworu looks down at his lap, Asariel rubbing against his hand as he pets it again. ]

Things like that.

[ the red eyes turn to Jack again. ] When you are young, you haven't met all the pain you will feel. It's not that you will feel all the pain it exists as you grow up - but as you do, you will continue to feel it through the years, more and more.

It's inevitable.

Thus, their imagination - the lack of it, as you call it - simply shifts to the reality they know and hope to make that reality better. Else it will just hurt. And no one wants to feel pain.