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asgardmeridiem2013-06-02 12:33 am
asgardmods) wrote in asgardmeridiem2013-06-02 12:33 am
Entry tags:
- !intro mingle,
- alastair stara,
- allen walker,
- altaïr ibn-la'ahad,
- asahi yuki,
- data!roxas,
- dirk strider,
- echo,
- erica reyes,
- euridice taverna,
- ezio auditore da firenze,
- grower,
- gwaine,
- inara serra,
- jack frost,
- jamie mccrimmon,
- maria thorpe,
- mel bush,
- natasha romanova,
- sam evans,
- shinji ikari,
- stiles stilinski,
- thor odinson
JUNE INTRO MINGLE
Who: Newbies and anyone who wishes to greet them!
What: Getting used to the city
When: Days 274 and forward
Where: Anywhere in town!
Rating: PG-13 tops! If it gets worse, move to a private log please.
[Please include your location and the IC day (ex. Day 275) in your top-level comment or your subject line when starting a thread! It can be any welcome hall, major attraction, or just out an about in any district. For newbies making a top-level thread, you may include your character's name/canon/house in your subject line if you'd like, to make housemates easy to find! :) If a God is needed or wanted, please ping the mods and depending on availability we might be able to throw them in where asked.
Also, keep an eye on the event schedule for June! If you're ICly introing during an event, make sure you take that into account. Thank you!
Have fun!]
What: Getting used to the city
When: Days 274 and forward
Where: Anywhere in town!
Rating: PG-13 tops! If it gets worse, move to a private log please.
[Please include your location and the IC day (ex. Day 275) in your top-level comment or your subject line when starting a thread! It can be any welcome hall, major attraction, or just out an about in any district. For newbies making a top-level thread, you may include your character's name/canon/house in your subject line if you'd like, to make housemates easy to find! :) If a God is needed or wanted, please ping the mods and depending on availability we might be able to throw them in where asked.
Also, keep an eye on the event schedule for June! If you're ICly introing during an event, make sure you take that into account. Thank you!
Have fun!]
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-- Allen, but with Kaworu too. Playing the piano. (The day he got Allen to play again for the first time. Christmas, even if they didn't know it was Christmas at the time.)
It's probably hard to believe Allen since he's a stranger to you, Shinji. Maybe that will help? (He can hope.) ]
He's my friend. [ Family. But it's soft, immediate, and certain. Almost blunt, like the most plainly simple sort of obvious thing. And he sits too, folding his arms over on the table and getting a thoughtful lift to his chin. ]
A lot of people consider him their friend, I think.
He's very kind.
[ A pause. ] ...It's okay, you know.
I think he'd be happy to see you.
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Seeing a ghost doesn't quite describe what Shinji is feeling right now. More like he was seeing someone he probably shouldn't be. ...These gods really were the worst.
Looks like there was nothing left to deny, now. Kaworu was here. Allen is no liar. A peculiar sort of character, for Shinji's liking, but not a liar. (Though Shinji must be just as peculiar to Allen, so he has no room to talk.)
In a mixture of surprise and still trying to cling to denial, Shinji hurriedly sweeps the photo away from himself and closer to Allen, a reaction as quick as reacting to something that just burned you.
'I think he'd be happy to see you.'
Happy to see Shinji?
Happy to see Shinji?!
And that's when the younger boy makes fists, shaking as they clenched tightly, ignoring how his naisl are digging into his skin. ]
If you know him so well why do you think he would?! [he didn't mean to raise his voice.]
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Because that's the kind of person Kaworu is, of course. Someone who's kind like that. Even if (like Allen when he's seen people he knows from his world) he'll also feel bad that it means they're here and won't be happy until they can go back home. It's mixed feelings and maybe feeling bad that they're happy to see them when someone else feels stuck here, like how much Kaworu had missed Shinji when he left before, but...
It's proof of caring.
So Allen just smiles quietly, that gentle and sympathetic sort of way, and takes the photo back, tucking it back into his pocket, and reaches to take a scone from the bakery sack. So that he might start to break it in two. ]
Everyone is happy to see people they care about, even if it's a complicated or hard thing.
It's their proof that they care. [ And given how much Kaworu says he loves people and how much he's told Allen he loves you -- surely you know that too, Shinji.
Even being enemies or opposing sides of something -- Allen only destroys, only "kills" out of kindness. Out of love. Even if it's all such a terribly sad thing, he'd rather it never be an issue in a first place -- isn't there killing someone only because you love them and there's no other choice?
It's a terrible thing that that becomes the only kind choice left, a sickening and terrible thing, but it doesn't mean you love them any less, right?
If anything maybe it means you love them more.
So he sets half the scone down in front of the other boy, although Allen doesn't take his own yet. ]
Even if it's a painful thing, too.
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You really do hang out with Kaworu too much, Allen, you know that?Proof that they care...
And that's what frightens Shinji as much as being alone. When people go that far for someone. He was perfectly fine with putting up the walls until he met Kaworu, who showed him what it was like to be cared for.
So while he wants to try to avoid Kaowru, he is happy to know Kaworu is alive and well. So... Yes. Yes, you're right, Allen. Even if a bond is complicated, people are going to be glad for one another. Shinji just needs some time to see it that way.
There is shuddering exhaling from Shinji, a breath he must have been holding without realizing it, and his fists are less balled. His gaze left Allen's to stare down at the scone he was handed.
It's not poisoned, Shinji. Go on, eat it.]Even if it's painful....
Is it the same for you, Allen?
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Allen was already like this before he met Kaworu. BUT YEAH IT PROBABLY DIDN'T... help...It's just important to him, these things. The human heart -- humanity that doesn't require being human -- and the strength of it.
But Allen blinks slightly at that. A small relief that Shinji seemed to be relaxing a little (or that he used his name) cut short by surprise, and he cocks his head at a bit of an angle. ]
The same for me? [ ? ]
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Double the jesuses for Shinji to deal with. Wonderful. hah.When Shinji carefully tried to pick his words, his fingers sort of twiddled at the scone, not really eating it, quite yet. ]Would you still think the same as what you're telling me if there was someone you would want to see again, even if it hurt you? Even if they betrayed your feelings?
[ Well. obviously, not in the same way as Shinji wondering if it's a good idea to see Kaworu again or not... (And we hope not!) But he wondered. Allen sounded so certain, and a little too all-knowing for Shinji's liking. Dealing with empaths was going to be a fun feat for Shinji, in this place. ]
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At least this one is empathetic enough to kick your ass if it needs kicking. But mostly he'll bleed kindness everywhere and find insidious ways to crawl into people's hearts against their better judgement, yeah. HAVE FUN.But his expressions flickers at that. A little quieter. Neutral. ]
Of course. [ And he doesn't even bat an eye at that. Though Allen's the one who's left others feeling betrayed by being who he is, by leaving them, most likely... Quite a few people. Even if it was for the best for them, too. And a few terrible misconceptions.
If anything that hurts worse though and why that's such a simple "of course". He's the one who has so many people he wants to see again so badly. And it would hurt so much because he knows how much he's hurt them and how bad that guilt can sting sometimes, even if he can't let it overwhelm him. But he would be so happy to see any of them, too.
Allen killed what he loved, after all. The first person who was ever kind to and gave him a home. Worse than killed, really. And a lot more people ended up dying or having their home broken because of him. ]
Feeling like that is only because of caring so much in the first place, isn't it?
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And Shinji does need a good ass-kicking/chewing out, sometimes. It's all good~.When Shinji takes Allen's question to thought, he had taken a nibble at the scone.
Yes, not poisoned. ...Good.(He might or might have taken another nibble at how surprisingly good it was.) Shinji may have been the one who asked, but he wasn't sure if he was going to ask any further explanation about the answer.And then, ]
Caring this much is troublesome, sometimes, when you put it that way.
[ Yet we all do it and need it, as humans?
It wasn't that the few bonds that Shinji had were meaningless or anything like that. That wasn't the case. Said bonds were proof he was capable of caring about other people. He was afraid of being hurt so he ends up hurting others when they got closer, even if he hated being alone on the same side of that coin. The hedgehog's dilemma, they call it. ]
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Allen blinks, expression slipping a little. And he pauses from picking up his own scone half, eyes flicking back to Shinji a little more quietly. Unreadable.
Like he's taking a moment to remind himself of something. (Be polite, Allen.) ]
"Troublesome"?
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Aw, come on. He reserves maybe a little right to wonder about the food people are offering him. A little girl kidnapped him to make him try her bread she made (and burnt) and he wondered if she was going to try kill him with it.It's troublesome that people still care for others, even if it might hurt. I though we all hated pain.
[ Is that love, whether romantic or not or platonic, at its rawest, to some extent? Either way, there's no way to control human emotions or heart, is there? ]
I don't deserve to be forgiven by people I hurt, if that is the case.
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Do you normally go around thinking little girls are out to kill you with burnt bread...But Allen -- stiffens a little at that, lifting his chin and getting a much sharper and clearer-eyed expression at that. You should ignore it Allen, you really should, but --
He's not good at that.
And there might be a sharper remark or some long speech on human caring and the human heart, except... ]
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He breaks his sconehalf in half again and feeds that quarter to Timcanpy. (Who apparently grows a mouth out of nowhere to eagerly snap it up with.) Very... gently. Seeming to only really pay attention to that and doing so rather deliberately. ]
That's a terrible way of thinking. [ SHRUG. (He can be blunt.)
At least when it comes to calling it as he sees it. But -- it's gentle even if flatly said. Like an offhand statement instead of accusation.
But he's very gentle in feeding Timcanpy just then and minding the crumbs. ]
It doesn't matter if you're forgiven or not.
As long as your reason is because of that caring.
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H-HEY. YOU NEVER KNOW.And Shinji just intently watched Allen feed Timcanpy. Rather than be put off by the gold creature, he was blinking and the look of curiosity came as fast as it left his face. Because he soaked in Allen's answer.
Though it didn't quite get through his head (...yet.), he was left thinking for a moment
(and we apologize for the awkward silence). At least he stopped thinking living was troublesome, at some point. (Though he disliked himself, he thought maybe he can like himself, someday.)He was going in a better direction, but it still needed some work.]
Is that so...
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Stitched-together but certain. ]
It's something to live for, isn't it?
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That is a little hard for someone who just simply lived (Not for anyone. Not even for himself. Not as an order. Just... Lived.) to wrap their head around.
Hard to quite understand for someone who clung to a purpose for their worth (piloting the Eva) and now that said purpose is not possible here and has been done after killing the final angel, he's left with a sense of "What happens now?".
But Shinji can try. (Just not right now, it seems...)
So he will look up again, blue eyes locking on grey ones. But it's Shinji, so his stares aren't piercing or intimidating. He just wonders the answer to this question he asks,]
Is that what you live for?
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He falters and blinks for a moment only because it's easy enough to sense that just became something rather important or pointed. Not that any conversation Allen ever had or imagined to have with you, Shinji, wouldn't be rather complicated and confusing and most of his with Kaworu have been pretty weird too, but --
Ah. ]
Doesn't everyone?
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Welcome, honorary not-Eva cast member. Sort-of philosophy talks are abound here!Shinji's eyes narrowed just the slightest. It wasn't cold or intimidating.
(He would never have his father's harsh stares.)They were just... unreadable.It's not like he wants answers or anything. He just wondered and wanted to try to understand you. Sort of. And he's failing. Then again, Allen wasn't any better at figuring out Shinji, is he?]
I guess so...? Some people might not be fine with doing that, though.
You're not one of those people. [ That wasn't a jab at Allen or anything, at all. Shinji was just simply stating it. Someone who didn't seem afraid of caring for and being cared for. ]
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Y e a h.
-- anyway.
Actually, he chuckles a little sheepishly at that and taps a gloved finger against his cheek. ]
No, I suppose not. [ It's a very clean-cut, very simple answer to both. But danger danger, Will Robinson -- you should probably change the topic, Allen. ]
But you probably have questions, right? Ah, about here.
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What does he do now...? Are there enough places here in Asgard to run away or/and hide?All that said... And even after what Kaworu made him do... This guilt really ok to feel? It was ok to, somewhere inside, to want to see hi again? (It's because you missed -no- miss him, Shinji. It's because you care; No matter what you think or do to avoid him. Who are you fooling?)
The brunet gave the question some thought. He knows why they're all here. He knows of the houses. But. These powers...? Battles...? ]
We're not against each other, here, are we? [ You won't be a threat to him, at some point, will you, Allen? ]
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You don't mean to think -- ]
No! [ Admittedly, Allen has enemies here and he's not entirely sure what to do about that since they are somewhat all in the same boat (and they aren't quite the same threat as before), but... ]
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[ It's a bright smile, such a very certain one, and he extends his hand. Like it's okay to take it ("it's okay"), or for a gentle shake. ]
Because we're all in the same sort of position.